The Madhouse

My friend pointed this likeness out this evening and it's genius! Take a look....

 

Jonno & Charlie from Lost! 

 

Yesterday was a fantastic day. Thank you to all involved.

I re-aquainted myself with some old friends who i've missed loads.

I had a fantastic time with some of my closest friends which is always something to remember.

I sang, yes you hear right. I've broken that three year plus gap and finally done it.

And yes, that love for it is still there. But it's amazing how something you love so much can scare you to death at the same time! But hopefully the more I do it the quicker that will pass!

I've got some photos of Chloe, the lady that organised the gig and so kindly invited me to perform, working her magic that i'm going to add to my pictures over the next few days so keep your eyes peeled because she's fabulous.

And some photos of my lovely friends that supported me as well. Thanks to you all for being there for me. I was shitting it!

Also a huge thank you to My Monkey who has not only pushed me through my fear and helped me to accomplish this. But who also ran all the way home just to rescue my lyrics because i'm stupid and I took the wrong ones. I'd be lost without him! ??

Will let you all know of any other nights coming up just in case your interested!

For now the feelings are good!

There is no better feeling than a day off work to spend some of your hard earned, and almost non existent, money pampering yourself.

 

That feeling of lying back and enjoying the head massage while your hairs being washed.

 

Watching those taunting split ends being chopped off.

 

Seeing your whole image change with a few choice cuts.

 

I've always loved going to the hairdressers!

 

Can't wait!

 

I'm also getting my roots touched up... lol, I said touched up! That's the boring part, lol. But well worth the wait!

 

Very much looking forward to a quiet day of contemplation to myself.... for myself.

 

Peace of mind.

 

Ash x x

Emotional Vampires, as La Vey called them, the less said the better so as to not put my foot in it. Need to get myself some guts and tell people the truth, cruel to be kind as they say.

I think possibly some Ash head space is needed.

I had some good news today. Well several bits of....

The first being from my doctor. Due to me simply forgetting to take my anti-depressants because well I don't feel like I need them he has told me that I can come off them!

I survived. I spent my whole teenage years avoiding the drugs because I wanted to do it naturally and to be honest, I was wasting my time in many respects. They helped me put everything aside and sort through the bits and pieces one by one. Fantastic, I should have done it before!!!

But now comes the hard bit.... coming off them. I get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about how hard it was back then and how unable to cope I was.

I don't want to go back there. But I suppose that fear of returning to that mentality is exactly what will stop me from doing just that. It will help me to recognise the signs this time.

Scared. But proud of myself none the less, so unbelievably proud.

I just need to have faith in myself, I brought myself this far and I did it for me. I can carry myself through, take responsibility and live through the other side.

A side I didn't think i'd ever see!

To celebrate this news I got yet more news when I got home.

I have an audition for the X Factor on the 30th April!!!

I'm completely bricking it at this very moment in time. I certainly haven't prepared anything and it would seem i've onlt got a few weeks to do so! But this just goes to show that I can do this.

I sent off the form, on my own initiative.

I can get through the audition.

And fingers crossed they'll see something special in me. We can but hope!

Today has been an exhilirating day and not one i'm going to forget in a while!

Love to all.

Ash x x x

Just thought I would let you all know that there are some photos up of mine & Matt's Engagement Party! Take a look, there are some fab one's!!

 

Ash x x

Just a little note for you all if your free and want to join us to celebrate x x x

Matt and I went for a meal on Friday evening, I chose a place that had always caught my eye, my original impression being that it would be of a similar price to the places i'm used to, it wasn't, but I definitely wasn't dissapointed

 

The meal cost us a fair amount, but for what we got it was bloody reasonable!

 

I had the soup of the day for a starter, which was fantastically creamy with a real homemade taste to it, dressed very nicely with a large crouton fried bread piece in the middle, not overly fried.

 

For my main meal I chose from their "pic n mix" section, where you have a list of the different types of pasta, of which there are alot to choose from, many i'd never heard of! You choose one of these and then choose from a list of sauces.

I went for the penne, because I love it, and the Neopalitana sauce with courgettes. I savoured every bite because the sauce was fantastic, so creamy and delicious and the vegetables were just right.

 

For pudding... this was the piece de resistance... Bailey's cheesecake, I was in heaven just thinking about it. When i turned up, well I could have creamed myself there and then, every bite was like heaven! The cheesecake was yet again homemade with a generous portion and delicious lime and plum sauces placed neatly on the plate.

 

The food was fantastically laid out. The portions were perfect, just enough to mean you could have the three courses and feel completely satisfied but not so stuffed you felt sick.

 

The service was brilliant, we weren't harassed, the plates were removed from the table once we had both finished and pushed our plates aside and even had time to have a sip of our drink. We didn't feel rushed.

 

The atmosphere was lovely, the music adding to that.

 

So... how much do you think it cost, considering we both had three courses and a bottle of Merlot....

 

 

 

 

 

 

Go on, take a guess.....

 

 

 

 

 

 

£52.... thats it!

 

For the service we got and the perfection of each seperate meal I expected to pay alot more than that!

 

So if your ever in Leicester I thouroughly recommend going there, I had a fantastic time.

 

 http://www.google.co.uk/maps?hl=en&q=alloro+restaurant&near=Leicester&sa=X&oi=local&ct=title

 

Another update for you. There isn't a huge amount to comment on really.

 

I'm not sure if i mentioned that I got a new job last year at Mark Insulations. I'm really enjoying it here, jobs pretty simple and occasionally made complicated by others, but not complicated enough for me to get stressed about it which is awesome!

 

Matt & I have started planning the wedding as you have seen, we've been buying bits to make the invitations and have written the guest list. As mentioned the wedding has been booked, that is now official as we have completed the legal side of things. And one of the wedding reception venues has been booked as well. Matt has ideas for suits and we've decided on a colour theme so he can get everyone measured for those and start sorting that side. I'm still waiting to start the preperations for my dress, although it's all designed in my head, just need to find the right materials etc and sort out my corset at La Veys.

 

Yeah i'm rambling... I know. Weddings are bloody complicated to organise!

 

I have also started singing again, not in public yet, but that should hopefully happen over the next month. Enjoying practising with my friend Richard who kindly agreed to play guitar with me.

Oh and, sad as it may sound to some, I applied to the X Factor! Haven't heard anything yet!

 

Erm.... can't really think of anything more to put at the moment.

 

The house is fine, bit messy. Weight loss is well more gain than loss at the moment but that should change soon!

 

The wedding takes up most of my thoughts at the moment as you can tell! lol.

 

Hope you are all well.

 

Take Care

 

Ash x

 

Yes, we really are being that efficient! The wedding reception venue is booked! All ours for that one evening!

 

It was pointed out to me that I have forgotten to mention dates, it wasn't intentional... my mind just ran away with me!

 

The wedding is going to be on the 13th September 2007... close family only and best men of course. This is being recorded and shown at the reception which is on the 15th September, which is a Saturday to make life easier for those that work and can't afford to take time off! We'll be sebding out invites for the Wedding Reception in the next month to prepare people that have to travel and give them plenty of notice to get things sorted.

 

Oh and I got my ring!!!! it's so pretty!!!!

 

More updates soon, and possibly pictures of the ring if I can find the batteries for my camera!

 

Lovya All

 

Ash x

I've gone into hyper wedding mode now that Christmas is out of the way.

 

I have officially booked not only the date but the time of mine and Matt''s wedding!!

 

Once the meeting for all of the official stuff is out of the way (e.g. notice of intention to marry etc) then we are officially set in that respect. That's at least one step towards getting everything started!

 

Next is reception venue, preperations alread underway I can promise you.... being a girl I of course didn't spend the whole day after being proposed to thinking about my wedding dress and venues *looks shifty* ok, maybe I got a little bit giddy and carried away  But who can blame me, it's not everyday you get to plan a wedding and I definitely don't plan on doing it again after this one!

 

I can't stop thinking about it all, and not in a bad way.... just what plans need to be made and what needs to be done etc. hehe.

 

Shall update you soon!

 

Ash x x